Corrupt

My mind has been corrupted by romantic comedies. I mean, what woman doesn't want to be swept away on a horse or yacht or limo? What woman doesn't want a man to scale a fire escape to rescue her? What woman doesn't want to dance with her man in the rain? What woman doesn't want to be awakened by a kiss from her prince? What women doesn't want a man to plot to meet her in a park and reveal his identify and love for her? Well, just because you want it, doesn't mean its gonna happen.

I am going out on a huge limb here...there is a guy that I am interested in. I would definitely like to spend more time with him and get to know him better. I am fairly certain that he knows I'm interested and I think he might be too, but I'm just not sure. I really can't tell if he is or isn't interested. In the secular world, I would be texting like crazy, totally relying on my emotions and progressing way too fast. Now that I want to date biblically, I have to sit back and wait. Wait for him to ask me out, wait for him to let me know he is interested, wait for him to initiate. Have I mentioned that I'm  not really good at waiting? Meanwhile, my mind is playing tricks on me. Not hearing from him has me wondering if he is interested, maybe he just isn't that into me (thank you, romantic comedy #6,789). My friends tell me he will ask me out when he is ready, meanwhile...yap, you guessed it...I get to wait. I'm really, really bad at that.

I had an epiphany regarding why I might be so bad at waiting...I have expectations that I want this boy to meet. I want him to think about me, I want him to text me, I want him to ask me out, I want him to hold my hand. This is totally unfair to him. How is he supposed to know all of this? Until he decides (hopefully!) to intentional pursue me, I can't have any expectations. Having expectations will only lead to frustration and disappointment. There is no reason for me to believe that he knows any of my "wants" or expectations. I want the fantasy of a romantic comedy and that just doesn't happen in real life. I may not get the romantic comedy that I want, but I know I will get the love story I deserve from God. His authorship is better than high paid writers crafting a box office hit. He has also already given me the most romantic story ever through His word.

So, I'm going to wait and see what happens. I'm going to leave my expectations at the door and just have fun. There is no point in me dwelling on what isn't happening, I am going to focus on what is! God is going to give me nothing but His best and I am pretty pumped about that!