Sometimes when I am having a bad day or need some extra encouragement I will sit down with my Bible and ask God to show me words that will encourage my heart. Then I randomly open my Bible and read a few pages, trying to figure out what God is trying to tell me. Tonight was no different...
I've been struggling with some of my insecurities lately. My heart has been hurt and today I was just a little down. Satan was definitely wagging war on me and I was filled with self-doubt and anxiety. All day I felt like I was asking God "why?" and not getting an answer. My head was full of the typical lies women buy in to regarding their looks, weight, style and beauty. This was all because I didn't feel wanted or worthy.
How easily I forget that I am the object of God's affection!! I grabbed by Bible and sat down on the couch and bowed my head in prayer, asking God to reveal something in His word that would encourage me and strengthen my heart. He led me to Song of Songs. My first reminder was that I am His beloved. He loves me like no one else does or ever will. Yes, I want an earthly husband to love and cherish me but I know that won't provide fulfillment. The only love that can do that is from my heavenly father. He has brought joy and reassurance to my heart tonight.
The verse that stood out to me was Song of Songs 3:8 "Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires". Another reminder for me to be patient and wait on God's timing when it comes to my love life. I certainly want to be the excellent wife described in Proverbs 31:10-31 and I know developing that type of character and those characteristics takes time. I am a work in progress and so is my future husband. My waiting is only drawing me closer to God and making me more Christ-like. I need to make more of an effort to remember that and not let the lies that loneliness brings suffocate my heart.
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